Gods Window

There is a saying that goes "when God closes a door, he opens a window". I honestly feel like this is the pattern my life is going in right now! It's hard to see doors close, it's hard to watch people leave your life, YET I am so excited for the windows that are being opened and the new people entering it!!!

WAIT..... Why are people climbing in my window?!?!? That's a little creeperish.... ;0)

The pattern my life has taken this past year is this... I hate to see people go, so I try my hardest to hold on to them and work through things. I recently had a life lesson on friends being like trees and how some people are only meant to be in our lives for a season. "when someone wants out of your life, you let them go." I have been trying to practice this method of just letting people go, and I have found that the Lord is opening the window to better options :0)
THANK YOU for the lessons learned by the exiting leafs, and WELCOME to the new buds on my tree!

Friends are Like Trees

A good friend of mine came for a visit the other day! He came in and said, "I learned something today that I think is applicable for both of us!" He proceeded to tell me "I was watching Tyler Perry today and this is what he said! Friends are like trees. Some are the leaves, these friends go wherever the wind blows them. They are in your life for a season and then gone. Other friends are the branches on the tree. These friends take take take and never have anything to give. These types of friends should be avoided. THEN, you have your friends that are the roots! These are true friends!" I am very appreciative for that small but important lesson, especially now as I watch very important people leave my immediate life. This change of season has been hard on me, yet I know that those who are true friends will always be there! I am soooo sooooo sooooo grateful for the true friends that I have! Thank you for being in my life, Thank you for seeing my potential when I am so imperfect, and thank you for loving me. I LOVE YOU TOO!!!

It's been a really long time since I have posted anything.... I'M SORRY :0) It's half being busy and half not having anything that I felt needed to be said.

So there is this idea that has been rolling around in my head.... Tell me what you think! I want to start a vlog on YouTube. I was approached with the question, "what would be on it Beth?" SO this is what I'm thinking.... I don't really want to do skits or anything like that, and I definitely don't want to do this to become FAMOUS on YouTube, I just think it would help me reach my initial goal in starting this blog... experience new things and record it while it's happening.... and also help my family and friends who are 1300 miles away stay up to date with whats going on with me. SOOOOOOO what do you think? Give me feed back.... would I be good at it? would you follow me? what should my YouTube name be if I do go for it?

The Past, The Present and the Future....

This has been a difficult day... why? because I'm having flashbacks of the past.
I was supposed to go to a wedding shower tonight for a friend, and I'm truly happy for her, but my past creeps back up and I have a stupid anxiety attack and I back out at the last minute.
Most people know my past, I was once engaged to a great man! For many reasons we called off out wedding, and I have not quite recovered. I have a wedding dress that hangs in my closet. Upon request of a friend I put it on yesterday, and it started my whole downfall for today.
It may seem odd to many, but I am grateful for my past with this man. He taught me so many things in the course of our relationship. The first was how to love, how to take myself a little less seriously, and through the breakup I learned how to forgive, and now how to be friends. More then anything I am grateful for his friendship! Thank you David, you never fail to amaze me, make me giggle when I need it the most, and still treat me with more respect then any man I have ever met :)
I don't know what my future holds. Life wouldn't be much fun if I did ;) but I am grateful for the example set for me.

The Gospel is True

I LOVE THE GOSPEL!!!!
That's all I have to say today... I spent the morning viewing talks online and sweet messages of the gospel given by our propohet and apostles. I love the feeling of peace that comes over me as I hear their testimonies and as the spirt whispers to me that the words they speak are true. And I love the feeling of hope that comes over me to reminds me that I can be better and be the woman I want to be.