Tuesday, July 27, 2010

It's been a really long time since I have posted anything.... I'M SORRY :0) It's half being busy and half not having anything that I felt needed to be said.

So there is this idea that has been rolling around in my head.... Tell me what you think! I want to start a vlog on YouTube. I was approached with the question, "what would be on it Beth?" SO this is what I'm thinking.... I don't really want to do skits or anything like that, and I definitely don't want to do this to become FAMOUS on YouTube, I just think it would help me reach my initial goal in starting this blog... experience new things and record it while it's happening.... and also help my family and friends who are 1300 miles away stay up to date with whats going on with me. SOOOOOOO what do you think? Give me feed back.... would I be good at it? would you follow me? what should my YouTube name be if I do go for it?

Thursday, July 8, 2010

The Past, The Present and the Future....

This has been a difficult day... why? because I'm having flashbacks of the past.
I was supposed to go to a wedding shower tonight for a friend, and I'm truly happy for her, but my past creeps back up and I have a stupid anxiety attack and I back out at the last minute.
Most people know my past, I was once engaged to a great man! For many reasons we called off out wedding, and I have not quite recovered. I have a wedding dress that hangs in my closet. Upon request of a friend I put it on yesterday, and it started my whole downfall for today.
It may seem odd to many, but I am grateful for my past with this man. He taught me so many things in the course of our relationship. The first was how to love, how to take myself a little less seriously, and through the breakup I learned how to forgive, and now how to be friends. More then anything I am grateful for his friendship! Thank you David, you never fail to amaze me, make me giggle when I need it the most, and still treat me with more respect then any man I have ever met :)
I don't know what my future holds. Life wouldn't be much fun if I did ;) but I am grateful for the example set for me.