Friends are Like Trees

A good friend of mine came for a visit the other day! He came in and said, "I learned something today that I think is applicable for both of us!" He proceeded to tell me "I was watching Tyler Perry today and this is what he said! Friends are like trees. Some are the leaves, these friends go wherever the wind blows them. They are in your life for a season and then gone. Other friends are the branches on the tree. These friends take take take and never have anything to give. These types of friends should be avoided. THEN, you have your friends that are the roots! These are true friends!" I am very appreciative for that small but important lesson, especially now as I watch very important people leave my immediate life. This change of season has been hard on me, yet I know that those who are true friends will always be there! I am soooo sooooo sooooo grateful for the true friends that I have! Thank you for being in my life, Thank you for seeing my potential when I am so imperfect, and thank you for loving me. I LOVE YOU TOO!!!

It's been a really long time since I have posted anything.... I'M SORRY :0) It's half being busy and half not having anything that I felt needed to be said.

So there is this idea that has been rolling around in my head.... Tell me what you think! I want to start a vlog on YouTube. I was approached with the question, "what would be on it Beth?" SO this is what I'm thinking.... I don't really want to do skits or anything like that, and I definitely don't want to do this to become FAMOUS on YouTube, I just think it would help me reach my initial goal in starting this blog... experience new things and record it while it's happening.... and also help my family and friends who are 1300 miles away stay up to date with whats going on with me. SOOOOOOO what do you think? Give me feed back.... would I be good at it? would you follow me? what should my YouTube name be if I do go for it?

The Past, The Present and the Future....

This has been a difficult day... why? because I'm having flashbacks of the past.
I was supposed to go to a wedding shower tonight for a friend, and I'm truly happy for her, but my past creeps back up and I have a stupid anxiety attack and I back out at the last minute.
Most people know my past, I was once engaged to a great man! For many reasons we called off out wedding, and I have not quite recovered. I have a wedding dress that hangs in my closet. Upon request of a friend I put it on yesterday, and it started my whole downfall for today.
It may seem odd to many, but I am grateful for my past with this man. He taught me so many things in the course of our relationship. The first was how to love, how to take myself a little less seriously, and through the breakup I learned how to forgive, and now how to be friends. More then anything I am grateful for his friendship! Thank you David, you never fail to amaze me, make me giggle when I need it the most, and still treat me with more respect then any man I have ever met :)
I don't know what my future holds. Life wouldn't be much fun if I did ;) but I am grateful for the example set for me.

The Gospel is True

I LOVE THE GOSPEL!!!!
That's all I have to say today... I spent the morning viewing talks online and sweet messages of the gospel given by our propohet and apostles. I love the feeling of peace that comes over me as I hear their testimonies and as the spirt whispers to me that the words they speak are true. And I love the feeling of hope that comes over me to reminds me that I can be better and be the woman I want to be.

Let Your Light So Shine...

I have a really amazing friend who is really great about giving me spiritual advice. I appreciate his point of view and his worthiness to be called upon when needed. I called upon him this past Sunday for a blessing, which was followed by a long discussion that brought on a memory.

The memory was of my Papaw Howard and something he said to me while I was in high school. Papaw was a good Pentecostal man, who loved the Lord and served Him in every way. He raised my father to be a hard worker and a God fearing man, and he did a very good job at it. The memory was this.... He told me "I am pleased with your special spirit, I am not sure you realize the light you radiate, you are like a lighthouse to those around you."

Do you realize the purpose of a lighthouse? Wiki Answers says: "...to steer mariners in dense fog and dark nights, away from cliffs. land and shorelines, coral reefs and other potentially hazardous areas....Lighthouses also need to be visable during the day to perform similar function of warning against reefs and rocks."

The light I radiated in high school was like a lighthouse...????.... I think it was actually true then.... I think I've lost a lot of that light over the past few years though....

I sat down this morning with a question in my heart and opened my scriptes to read from 3 Nephi 12 my eyes were drawn to versis 15 and 16. they read:
15 " Behold do men light a candle and put it under a bushel? Nay, but on a candlestick, and it giveth light to all that are in the house"
16 "Therefore let your light so shine before this people, that they may see your good works and glorigy your Father who is in heaven."

It made me remember last Sunday, and Brad and my discussion. It made me remember my desire to find that light again.... SO here we go!

"That Ye May Be Filled With Love" Alma 38:12

I've chosen to spend some time today studying the Law of Chastity. One of my favoriet quotes on the subject is as follows...

"Bridle is the word that wise father Alma used in counseling his son Shiblon, and the promise he attached is the key to understanding. 'Bridle your passions, that ye may be filled with love.' BRIDLING increases strength, increases power, increases love. There are absolutely two ways you can controll a horse. One is to kills it; the other is to bridle it. Alma never said kill your passions. The implication is not that passions are evil, that we shouldn't have them. On the contrary, we bridle something we love, who's power we respect. A horse is stronger then a man, so a man bridles it thus controlling it's power and using that power for good. Passions are stronger then we are, so we bridle them thus controlling their power and using that power to strengthen a marriage and forge it into eternity. REMEMBER, a physical relationship is simply to beautiful to squander, to wonderful to waste. It is the sterling silver to PRECIOUS to tarnish before the beauty of the banquet." Paul H. Dunn

The Heart of Life....

ANYONE who knows me know I LOVE JOHN MAYER!!!!! There is something about his music that mellows me out and makes me feel better. Today, the song holding me grounded is THE HEART OF LIFE.

I hate to see you cry

Lying there in that position

There's things you need to hear

So turn off your tears

AND LISTEN

Pain throws your heart to the ground

Love turns the whole thing around

No it wont all go the way it should

But I know the heart of life is good

You know, it's nothing new

Bad news never had good timing

But then, the circle of your friends

Will defend the silver lining

Pain throws your heart to the ground

Love turns the whole thing around

No, it wont all go the way it should

But I know the heart of life is good

Pain throws your heart to the ground

Love turns the whole thing around

Fear is a friend who's misunderstood

But I know the heart of life is good

I KNOW IT'S GOOD!